WHaaAAT is this feeling?

There is this constant fear in my mind. Some days I feel like I will take life as it happens but the other days I fear what will happen to the future if I do not have a plan. I guess it is normal for people to be thinking both ways. But, what is the right thing to do? Sometimes, I have my mind fixated on something but, people pull me down. Some make me feel like it is not my cup of tea. Some make me feel that the path I am trying to make for myself is not right. Well, the only one who has the right to comment on what I can do is ME, MYSELF AND I. But, there is also a fear of being judged for the decisions you make for yourself. This decisions has nothing to do with the ones who judge and doesn’t harm them in anyway. So, why is that they constantly try to let you down. I sometimes, tend to ignore these people but they constantly peep inside my head and I feel like they know what I am thinking. Does this mean that I am way too conscious or does this mean that I do not have confidence in myself?

Every day I end my day telling myself when tomorrow comes I will be a new person. But, yesterday comes back pulls me far away from being a new person. Yesterday hinders me from having new and fresh thoughts and also takes my time away to think for myself. As much as everything I have written above confuses you it confuses me even more. Because, I am the one having these thoughts it is like multiple question test where every options look similar. But, I hope someday I will be able to choose the correct answer from all the confusing alternatives and figure out all my confusions. But, what is this feeling that I have is this confusion or something else?